Sometimes thoughts come beforehand but their implications strike when they have to........

since 2007 to 2010,some things have changed but I think these were seen .

 

Thursday, December 4, 2008

{this thought may be from the diary pages of any one who often finds himself devoid of any real happiness in the run of his life.}

Sunday,
August 12, 2007
AM 10:33:40


" I AM HAPPY ?!!!"

Basking on the old armchair I was beholden to my evening coffee for it stirred my all day enervation.My eyes were busy in adulating baroque nature and this was its daily job.Sea was cool and calm without any agression.It had to bate its roaring noise for it had bent something.It accosted to listen to the romantic conversation of a pair sitting on its beach enjoying the waves which touched their lovely
feet and sea became amorous.

"love is life"

Cunningly the sea was very happy to bedraggle a small boy whose fingers were crossed with his fathers.Barefooted walking on its l he was befuddled for his next blandishment before his father which would entertain his whims and fancies.

"innocence soothed by care"

Sea was beseeching air to abate for two sweet young ladies were trying to control their billowing skirts.Both were friends and involved in a cheerful badinageas one of them had become betrothed and was going to tie bonds very soon.

"friendship completes life"

Everyone was happy as if the world has been bestowed with the benison of love ,care and joi-de-vivre.My eyes took a rest and i found myself in mumma's lap,brothers ready for a funny fight,my beloved calling me to go for a drive..........
But I was bemused because things belied my bereavement.Apalled by Iopened my eyes and I saw barefaced sky smiling at my lonelinness.It took a bestial form and darkened.Irealised that among bevy of strange faces finally I had to soliloquize because there is noone to share,noone to love and noone to tease.
It behooves me to trust noone as there is fear of getting bilked.It is very bizzare to be with emotions and relations .But when you are all
aloneyou would find yourself bereft of cheer,affection and complacence.

Apropos sea , Ioften extract pleasure from others joy and try to keep myself busy.But as soon as sky blackenes I screech with bane of
this fateful aloofness.Life teaches us to append blithe optimism to heart because life is not in the way you want to live it while it is in the
way it wants you to live it.These strict and bitter apothegms console and beget me and I say "I AM HAPPY.."

रंग्पात्र
लोगों ने कहा यह अच्छा है तो अच्छा ही होगा ,ऐसा मैंने सोचा
उन्होंने कहा यह सही नहीं ..तो यह  गलत है ,ऐसा मैंने सोचा .
अनगिनत रंग बदलते  भाव मन में आए और एक आकृति बनी
वो जो कुछ  मुझ  सी थी पर वो   मैं  नहीं  थी
वह  एक  रंग्पात्र थी जो हमेशा कहती रही
मुझमे अभी और कई रंग भरने और बदलने बाकी हैं..